Part 22 - A Decision
Jennifer woke to the early morning beginnings of light that would bring a cloudy day, and she was momentarily confused. She couldn't understand why she was
on top of the bed and not in it. Then, thoughts and pictures of the previous night infiltrated her sleepy peacefulness and she balked. She remembered, now. The
events of last evening fell around her in open array, like a deck of cards that had been dropped and scattered. She remembered her complete humiliation, and
she wanted to shrivel up and die.
She forced herself to get out of the bed, and her legs felt like lead as she plodded to the bathroom. Glancing at the clock beside the bed, she realized that
she had slept in somewhat, and it was already past 7:30. What was she going to do, she wondered. She did not want to face Jack this morning, and she was afraid
to go downstairs to see if he had left or if he was still there.
Downstairs, Jack had been lying on the sofa, contemplating. He was sorry that he had hurt Jennifer's feelings, but it didn't surprise him much. She had
been setting herself up for such disappointment for a long time, he thought. Perhaps he had done her a favor, in the long run, by pushing those feelings up to
the surface for her to deal with and put away. Why didn't that thought give him any consolation, though?
Jack debated about going home and grabbing a shower before work, but he was still concerned that Jennifer might come downstairs and find him gone before the
designated 9:00 time, and he had gotten so far last night, he didn't want to jeopardize the situation any. He needn't have worried; Jennifer had no
intention of showing herself to him, now or for the entire day!
Upstairs, Jennifer was deep in thought. She didn't see how she could leave there until after 9:00, so she decided to wait things out. She just hoped and
prayed that Jack would leave soon and let her be. Jennifer began to map out her plan of action for the day, and she started by putting in a phone call for
Vern. She left a message, telling him that she was a little under the weather and that she would not be coming in that day. Having accomplished that, Jennifer
crossed to her dresser and began to choose what to wear for her day off. She kept one ear cocked toward the door, straining to make out any sounds from the
level below, but it was silent. She wondered if he was even there, but she was still smarting from the events of last night, and she would not go down there
and see for herself, so she remained in her self-imposed exile until the time appointed.
The minutes ticked by, time endless. Neither knew the other was waiting it out, both too stubborn to do something about it. Finally, as the 9:00 deadline
loomed, Jack took matters into his own hands. The waiting was making him crazy, and he decided to head upstairs and see what this was all about.
Inside the room, Jennifer heard his footsteps, and she double checked that the door was locked. Then, for good measure, she hastened across the room and took
refuge in the bathroom.
Jack stopped beside the door, finding his destination, but now unsure what to say or do. He listened a moment, but heard nothing. He waited, for an
indeterminable amount of time, and when he could stand it no longer, he lifted a hand and rapped his knuckles gently on the door, saying softly,
"Jennifer."
She refused acknowledgement. Jennifer was tired and disgusted and she was not going to play this game any longer. Jack tried again. "Jennifer!" This
time he raised his voice slightly.
Jennifer felt a brief moment of panic. She did not even want to listen to whatever it might be he would say, and she slammed the door to the bathroom and
turned on the water, full blast.
At his post by the door, Jack was startled at the sound. She wasn't sleeping, obviously. She must have heard him call. So, she was still upset and angry
with him. He felt compelled to try one more time, and he knocked hard and called her name, loudly. When she didn't answer, he got frustrated. After all, he
had only been playing, just as she had. He didn't understand why she had to be so darned unpredictable now. But a foreign emotion Jack could not identify
was beginning to seep into him, and he felt its awkward presence.
Jennifer stood inside her bathroom fortress, a million emotions a jumble in her. Why did he have to treat her like a stupid little girl? And why did she keep
on throwing herself at him, over and over, not facing the sure and certain knowledge that he didn't want at all. Hot tears threatened as they burned the
back of her eyes, and she splashed at the water in the sink, trying to drown out the sound of his voice outside her door.
If Jennifer's humiliation was not enough, her dismay was now complete. She still wanted him! More than anything in the world, she wanted to propel herself
from the bathroom and hurl herself into his arms. What was wrong with her anyway? What hold did this man have on her?
Jack did not know what to do. He waited an uncertain moment longer, and then he abruptly turned on his heel and headed back down the stairs. He lifted his
jacket from the back of the sofa, and he stalked across the room to the door, intent on leaving. Swinging back the door, he stopped in his tracks, and then he
crossed the room to the counter, where he found a small notepad with the name Jennifer proudly displayed. He fumbled in the cup on the counter for a pen, and
he ripped off one sheet and began to scrawl a message. Then he stalked back to the door and smashed the note onto the door, exiting with a slam. Upstairs,
Jennifer heard the sound and felt the shake, as it penetrated her heart. She eased out of the bathroom and over to the window, where she watched as Jack strode
over to his car and got in and drove off.
Anger intermingled with despair, Jennifer decided what she needed to do, and she crossed the room and reaching into her closet, pulled out an overnight bag.
Without even being fully aware of what she was doing, she began to rifle through the dresser, throwing clothing and personal items into the bag, as she
struggled to hold back tears. It really was over, she told herself, wishing she could believe it or accept it and knowing in her heart that she could not
understand it.
Jennifer knew three things in that moment. She knew that she could not go in to work and face Jack today, she knew that she needed to get away from the loft, a
place that held so many memories that were tied to Jack, and she knew, heartbreakingly, that she had to deal with the fact that Jack did not share her feelings
and that there was no future for them.
Determination as her ally, Jennifer made short work of her packing, and she hauled the bag over her shoulder and made her way downstairs, flinging it on the
sofa. She stopped and stared, for a moment, and then she reached down and lifted a pillow. Hugging it close to her heart, Jennifer let out the last precious
tears and then thrust it away again, lifting her bag to her shoulder once again.
Jennifer stopped only long enough to put on her coat and grab her purse. Then she made her way over to the door, where she stopped in shock at the note she saw
awaiting her. It was most definitely Jack's scrawl of handwriting, and she lifted it from its position of prominence, swallowed hard, and read the message:
See you at work! Jack
A cynical chuckle, unusual for Jennifer, escaped her throat. She gathered all the anger and hurt within her as she crunched the paper into a ball and threw it
on the floor. "We'll just see about that, Jack," she countered stubbornly, and she threw back the door and left the place she called home.
Jennifer was going away, and at this moment, she did not know when or if she would return there again. With a toss of her blond hair, she departed, putting her
memories and feelings behind her, as she prepared herself for the dismal realization that she was going to have to move on without him. Jennifer gulped one
last time and thrust her most disturbing thought out of her mind: how on earth would she ever do that?
...to be continued...
Next time: Jack goes off to work, but he cannot seem to locate his cub reporter.


